Category: Every Three Weeks
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Why Every Three Weeks?
In December 2019, I wrote my very first blog post while preparing for my first chemotherapy treatment. Somewhere near the end I wrote, almost casually, “This will all repeat every three weeks.” I had no idea what those words would come to mean. I didn’t know that years later I would still be planning my…
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TX 55 + 56: Sometimes When it Rains, It Pours
I feel like I’ve been having that kind of time lately… Sometimes the weeks go by and I’m just focused on healing, reminding myself to pick a day to rest because I don’t want my body to pick one for me. And then sometimes all of my plans and/or friends or work plans collide into…
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TX #49 and My Newest Obsession: Jackie + Shadow
I had my 49th treatment on Monday, but first let me back up and fill you in on what’s been happening the past three weeks. I was originally scheduled for treatment #49 the day after President’s Day at a different treatment center. My regular center had been shut down for the past two months because…
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2023, The Year of the Staycation
In one of my previous blogs, I talked a little bit about how I want to take my mental health seriously and how I was looking for a therapist who specializes in cognitive behavioral therapy. Finding a therapist has been really challenging. I was seeing one last year, but she wasn’t very reliable. She would…
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No More FOMO, Only JOMO
Hello friends! It’s been awhile. 🙂 I have so much to catch you up on that I don’t even know where to start. First of all, I hope you’ve all been well, and I’m wishing everyone all the best in 2023. I’ve decided that my mantra for this year will be: NO MORE FOMO, ONLY…
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I Need Xanax
It’s crazy how fast things can change. I was so happy and finally feeling more like myself. I just got back from Texas and I haven’t even had a chance to write about my graduation weekend and girls’ trip yet. More on that later because… I DID IT!!! I GOT MY DEGREE!!! Finally. And FOR…
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2022: I Am Tiger
BTW, totally borrowing this from I Am Legend, another one of my favorite end-of-the-world movies. So, the tiger is my Chinese zodiac sign and 22 is my favorite number. So much auspiciousness! And wow… Where did the time go? The last time it was the Year of the Tiger was 2010, and I was heading…
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Cancerversary Thoughts and RIP Alison
I’ve been having kind of a hard week. I’ve been feeling super anxious and negative and thinking all kinds of crazy thoughts in general. Then I realized that tomorrow, November 18th, is my cancerversary. I need to come up with another name for it, but I’m too exhausted to think of something clever right now.…
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Remembering 9/11 — Good Scan, Bad Scan
I remember 9/11/2001 just like it was yesterday. I was living in Oakland and working in downtown San Francisco, across from Two Embarcadero. It was creepy driving across the Bay Bridge with absolutely no traffic. I felt like I was in a zombie apocalypse movie. I also remember thinking that day: I wonder what it…
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I’m Scared for My Life
I have a PET scan tomorrow, and I’m having a nervous breakdown. I’m thinking all the thoughts and all the what-ifs. I’m scared. I’m worried. I’m wondering if the cancer has come back. It’s seriously insane how one scan feels like it has the power to determine my entire future life path. Or maybe there’s…
